For those of us who want to get to the next level, we are always looking for that edge to be better, faster, smarter and stronger.
Our biggest problem may be that we are doing something we don’t want to be doing in the first place or doing something in a way we don’t want to be doing it. My addiction helped me be able to perform in a life I didn’t want to be living in the first place. And maybe you don’t have an addiction, but if you are compromising who you are and what you want in your business, in your marriage, in your life… it will keep you from making it to the next level easily and from reaching your full potential. And what’s the point of reaching that next level if your ladder is completely against the wrong wall?
You have been given dreams and desires – dreams that drive you to be better, faster, stronger, smarter without prescription drugs.
This is my story of going through 10 days of detox in Costa Rica and what I discovered about what the last 5 years have done to my body.
This is an excerpt from my book Addicted: How to Stop Compromising and Be Truly Happy in Your Life
Day 1 Friday
My flight was canceled yesterday because I was supposed to fly from Austin with a layover in Houston before heading down to Costa Rica but Houston was flooded so I had to rebook to flight through New York. My travel time went from 5 hours to 10 hours.
Here’s the thing… the idea of sitting for even 15 minutes scares me. The idea of traveling for five hours already put me off. The idea of ten hours of sitting and traveling… uhhhhh….
I made it though. I paced the aisles on the planes and brought my hemp cream. All good.
When I got into CR and I felt a massive release throughout my body. Traveling puts me at ease. It makes me feel like anything is possible. It breaks my habits and limiting beliefs. Growing up an army brat, traveling was in my blood and at 42 I knew I wouldn’t grow out of it.
I took in the Spanish words I saw in the airport letting my mind adjust and I stopped before entering the bathroom to make sure.
It’s a photo.
I think I’ve got this.
Day 2 Saturday
I got in the hostel the night before and today was day 2 off of Adderall. I didn’t feel like I needed it so I didn’t take it. I just let my body rest.
I met a girl from Germany and we walked around town eating at restaurants and cafes, enjoying the city, and chatting.
It hurt to walk, but sitting was ok.
I got back to my hostel and started Googling. I was going to figure this out. I texted my friend who’s a health nut. She talked about how I’m probably dehydrated from the Adderall and I should drink more water. That led me to start thinking… “Maybe this Adderall thing was a bigger issue than I wanted to believe.” I decided I was going to quit and see what happens.
This was my turning point.
Day 3 Sunday
I’m using less and less of the hemp cream, but I am feeling massive inflammation in my feet. I can feel they need stretching or a massage as well. The tightness is keeping my feet from stepping flatly on the ground and I know that if I were to do something like run on them, I would be in massive pain from the joints being out of place.
Today was a huge win for me. I was able to sit on the bus for 5 hours to go from San Jose to La Fortuna with only mild aches and pains but I don’t think I was much more uncomfortable than the girl sitting next to me.
After I got to the city, La Fortuna, I went to a cafe to get something to eat and was able to sit without a problem. It feels good to be able to be out and function again. I feel like I’ve been avoiding going out and social situations for years because of the pain of sitting – to drive, to sit at a place, to move.
After arriving at the hostel, I made some friends and spent the evening playing cards and laughing.
I was pretty freaked out though. The game we were playing, Avocado, required me to remember up to 6 or so cards and I had a really hard time remembering 1 or 2 cards. I was really focused and straining to remember what cards I had seen and I just realized that the Adderall had taken my memory.
I have decided that it’s just the withdrawal effects and that THIS WILL NOT BE LONG TERM. I will do whatever it takes to bring back and even improve my memory to better than what it was before.