There’s a sinking feeling inside of you. A sadness. A feeling of being trapped…

There’s a sinking feeling inside of you. A sadness. A feeling of being trapped. A feeling of loss…Nichole Carlson

 

There’s a sinking feeling inside of you. A sadness. A feeling of being trapped…

WTF is your life if you are always working…
If you are always stressed…
If you are always doing something until you can…
If you are putting off your vacations, your friends, your family and going out?

There’s a sinking feeling inside of you. A sadness. A feeling of being trapped. A feeling of loss…

 

You think…
I just need to get through THIS…
This year things HAVE to change…
Once I figure this out, then I can…

But you’re telling yourself…
It’s not that bad.
You can make it another month.
You need to do this first.

And then some days when you are tired, the TRUTH comes out.
Fuck this shit.
I’m done.
You feel nauseous.
You have another anxiety attack.

You take another xanax or zoloft or Adderall or caffeine + ibuprofen – AND YOU PUSH THAT SHIT DOWN.

Because you have to push through. You have to make yourself do this. After all, you want to be successful.

But THIS never works. You get to a point where you are so fucking sick of it nothing matters – everything you worked so hard for… nah. Not worth it. Fuck it. Fuck it all.
I DID THIS! I have lived this nightmare – I was married to a man who had cheated on me & we were together for 12 years! I chose a career for the money and security… and I hated it. I wasn’t allowed to talk about the cheating or to talk about anything that was wrong in the relationship. I would go to the bathroom at work and have my anxiety attacks.

I compromised my values and my integrity by making one ‘small decision’ after another that eventually created my entire life – a life that I HATED but justified that I ‘had a good life and should be grateful’

I wasn’t following integrity, heart, soul…

And honestly, I didn’t know anything about following heart & soul.
And integrity was tough to me as self – sacrifice… make others happy… do the right thing for others… forgive – even if that meant mental & emotional turmoil for the entirety of my marriage.

Finally, I couldn’t force myself to stay.

I LITERALLY COULD NOT FORCE MYSELF TO STAY.

We got a divorce and shortly after I quit my job, sold my car an hour later and the next DAY I was on a one-way out of the country.

And maybe your story is different. Maybe you have created the business you’ve always wanted and you are building the life you want, but you are still getting that feeling of being trapped, waiting for your life to start, and sacrificing what you want now for your future…

If you aren’t creating a life that makes you want to…
jump out of bed with excitement every morning,
create programs in your biz that you absolutely are in love with,
Calling in your soul mate clients easily,
make more $$$ money because you are on FIRE and get to work less,
attracting people that light you up in your personal life,
And excited to go home every day because your relationship is on FIRE…

Then it’s FUCKING TIME to Flip the Switch!

 

Nichole


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