When you’ve learned from the last relationship and this time you’ll pick someone ‘safe’…

When you’ve learned from the last relationship and this time you’ll pick someone ‘safe’… You will STILL  Have the Same  Problem. Maybe a slightly different flavor, but you are guaranteed the same problem. Almost 20 years the problem followed me through my marriage, into my next two relationships. Abandonment… Neglect… Feeling alone… Work was more important than me… Feeling like … Read More

Wow. I’m the girl that used to trigger me…

Nichole Carlson

Wow. I’m the girl that used to trigger me… The girl that shows up so confident with the hair and makeup… I mean, who the f does she think she is?  Why does she keep going on and on? Who needs to talk that much?  Just her presence would trigger me and I would just shut her out in my … Read More

I talked to my military dad the other day…

I talked to my military dad the other day… (A friend of my parents from the army base while we were growing up… You form army families) Told him about how I manifested my future husband and all the things… And he was around when I was married to my ex-husband and when I divorced my ex-husband…  And he said … Read More

We are so wrapped up in personal development and ‘finding our blocks’ so we can eradicate them and get the damn thing that we forget we need to heal – which is probably your soul telling you to slow the fuck down and rest.

We are so wrapped up in personal development and ‘finding our blocks’ so we can eradicate them and get the damn thing that we forget we need to heal – which is probably your soul telling you to slow the fuck down and rest. But you are so wrapped up in fear… omg… I want babies and I’m only getting … Read More

I hesitated using the word Addicted…

I hesitated using the word Addicted I was prescribed Adderall by a doctor, I never abused it, in fact I took 1/4 of my prescription each day and sometimes I didn’t take any… I never thought it was that bad… But I didn’t want to be on it either… For years I searched the internet for the effects of Adderall … Read More

I tell my story of Addiction…

I tell my story of Addiction… 🗣 🙅‍♀️ not because… I am stuck in my story… 🙅‍♀️ not because I want to show you I’m a victim of the system, 🙅‍♀️ And not because I want you to feel bad for me… 🙅‍♀️ And not because I think you need help with getting off of Adderall… 😉 But because I … Read More