Adderall was killing me

Nichole Carlson, Addiction the book, Adderall

For those of us who want to get to the next level, we are always looking for that edge to be better, faster, smarter and stronger.

Our biggest problem may be that we are doing something we don’t want to be doing in the first place or doing something in a way we don’t want to be doing it. My addiction helped me be able to perform in a life I didn’t want to be living in the first place. And maybe you don’t have an addiction, but if you are compromising who you are and what you want in your business, in your marriage, in your life… it will keep you from making it to the next level easily and from reaching your full potential. And what’s the point of reaching that next level if your ladder is completely against the wrong wall?

You have been given dreams and desires – dreams that drive you to be better, faster, stronger, smarter without prescription drugs.

This is my story of going through 10 days of detox in Costa Rica and what I discovered about what the last 5 years have done to my body.

This is an excerpt from my book Addicted: How to Stop Compromising and Be Truly Happy in Your Life

As I walked off stage placing First, First and Third, last year after my 3rd bodybuilding competition and in the best shape of my life…
Little did I know that within a week I would have chronic crippling pain throughout my body that would lead me to spend every moment in my life on my recovery,
spend thousands of dollars only to see my body just getting worse,
feeling like I was fighting for my life as I watch my business that I love so much fall apart,
lose all of my friends and become isolated and alone…
FOR AN ENTIRE YEAR…
 
And I would start to lose my eyesight,
My short term-memory was going,
Depression set in,
My organs started hurting,
I couldn’t sleep at all and I couldn’t stay awake during the day,
I was chronically fatigued.
 
I quit everything except for my recovery…
In search for what was killing me.

The one thing that I loved and trusted the most – my body – I could no longer trust or depend on.
I even stopped taking clients but kept working on my business hoping…
Knowing…
That one day…
I would win.
 
But things kept getting worse.
September 23rd I was curled up in a ball, pain shooting through my body, in a hotel room in San Jose, Costa Rica.
It was supposed to be my vacation, but it was my darkest hour.
Why was this happening to me?!
I was doing everything right!
Warm tears rolled down my face as determination and pain shot through my body.
Intuition kicked in and I texted a friend.
She mentioned Adderall and suddenly it clicked.
 
Adderall was killing me.
 
I kind of knew it all along but I tried to justify all of my symptoms until I couldn’t anymore.
So I flipped the switch inside of me to never go back.
I was DONE.
 
I had been off for 3 days on because I wasn’t taking it on vacation so I was already 3 days into the detox.
I spent 10 days detoxing in Costa Rica and wrote my first book on my Adderall detox, Addicted(available on Amazon 🙂
 
Now it’s been 2 months and 7 days and I have my life back.
 
You may not have an addiction to Adderall, but what are you doing right now that’s taking away your life and suppressing your soul.
In my 20s, it was that I was married to a man I didn’t trust and in a career I HATED.
And I stayed and justified my reasons for staying in that relationship, for staying in that career…
But at the end of the day… YOU ARE GIVING YOU LIFE FOR THAT THING.
 
So whatever it is you are doing,
Know there is a way out.
Know you CAN have what you want.
 
You don’t have to sacrifice your happiness to live a life you don’t want to be living anyways.
 

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