It’s NEVER going to work as long as you are trying… 😕

    I don’t care how much time effort and energy you put into it, trying to make it work does not and will never make it work.

    All you are doing is committing yourself to struggle.

    🤨 Scarcity.

    😩 Hardship.

    😨 And fear.

    And you SAY you believe you can have it, but if you do not have it, you are blocked.

    People spend years… decades even, thinking they are so close to having what they want only to be let down over and over again…

    And THEN they see “the lucky ones” getting what they can’t seem to get… and easily…

    📌 Justifying it with the thought, well ‘those’ people aren’t really happy anyways… it’s social media… you can’t really trust it…

    📌 Justifying that it’s OKAY they don’t have what their heart and soul is longing for…

    📌 Justifying that they ‘don’t really want it anyway’

    📌 Justifying that they’ll get there after ‘they work on their business’ - AND THE TRUTH IS THEY DON’T THINK THEY CAN HAVE IT, SO THEY SAY IT’S BECAUSE OF THEIR BUSINESS. YES. YOU REALLY DON’T BELIEVE. I JUST CLEARED THAT LIE FOR YOU.

    📌 justifying it because they are ‘super picky and don’t want to put up with the bullshit’ -SCARCITY MINDSET.

    📌 justifying it because ‘when it’s time, it’ll happen.

    LOOK, IF YOU DO NOT CHOOSE IT, IT WILL NOT FUCKING HAPPEN. YOU NEED TO CHOOSE IT. JUST BECAUSE GOD OR THE UNIVERSE HAS A PLAN AND HAS YOUR BACK DOES NOT MEAN YOU DON’T HAVE TO GET THE FUCK UP AND DECIDE AND CHOOSE YOUR DESTINY. ULTIMATELY YOU ARE IN CONTROL.

    📌 Justifying it… (here we go people) because they are already married and they cannot change the other person. ALSO A SCARCITY, VICTIM MINDSET.

    IT IS YOUR RESPONSIBILITY TO MAKE THAT CHOICE.

    Otherwise, you get the same patterns that you’ve always gotten. 🤷‍♀️

    And all these beliefs you have… heart-wrenching. The Notebook, heart-wrenching. 🥺

    Just believing these are causing you so much pain. 😓

    I know. 😉

    I was that girl. 🤫

    I believed all of these things because they were true. They happened to me. 😕

    But I made a choice to

    And…

    May 31…

    The house was silent as I was pondering why I couldn’t have what I wanted.

    I wanted him, yes. But really I wanted that feeling - that feeling that you get when he raps you and kisses you and then your legs totally give out and he has to hold you up. THAT feeling is better than ANY leg day. That’s what I wanted.

    And so I decided that I HAD to believe in love.

    If I want what I say I want, then I HAVE to believe… and I FORCED myself to believe.

    And the doubts tried to come in and I stopped them mid-sentence.

    And there was this thought…

    Is this the same as when I was a little girl wishing so hard to be a mermaid and it never happened? Is this the same?

    Didn’t matter.

    I decided and three days later, he was pursuing me and we were making future plans together. ❤️